Totally made my day, and renewed my faith
That’s what I have been doing in my free time. The trouble is that my job doesn’t give the option of easing back into my work. I have to be in court several times per week and preparing when I am not in court. I have been trying to keep as busy as possible. My boyfriend has been very supportive and understanding and says he’s ready to go through this with me so that definitely helps.
What I hate most of all is that cloudy feeling in my head. It was there all day today at work and didn’t start to clear until late this afternoon. It’s been so long since I have been off of Adderall that I don’t know if that’s just me or if it’s the aftermath.
I was on adderall the entire elevan years but just took it in my prescribed dosage for the past several years until recently. I wish I could pinpoint what caused the abuse to start again. I think it was a culmination of a number of things. That’s all I have been able to figure out so far. I would love to transition into a new career but the economy makes that pretty impossible right now because I have financial obligations outside of myself. I am trying to plan for the future though and I want a future without Adderall because I am sick of cheating.
Thank you for this site. I just want to tell you that I just flushed my newly renewed prescription down the toilet after abusing it for months. It finally hit me how much of my life I have wasted away by taking this stupid pill.
I just hope I can stay strong
Wow, here I am again on your website. It’s a year later. I am trying to quit again. Well, this time I was forced to quit. Little about me.
Quit adderall for 3 months last September. Had personal issues. Couldn’t deal. Went back to adderall. Broke up with my fiance. Moved in with my parents. Lost my job. Moved to Houston, TX from OH in April. Landed in the hospital in June due to adderall overdose. My insurance company has banned me from it. My doctor won’t give it to me. Got concerta out of sheer desperation a month ago b/c i was stressed out beyond all get out and had to get stuff done. Insurance wouldn’t pay for it. I paid $160 out of pocket for one month of pills. Talk about addiction, right?
So here I am again. I am happy off these pills, but keep falling back b/c I get overwhelmed and afraid of gaining a million pounds. I hope I can stay off forever.
I’m glad your website is still here. I’m glad to see I have a lot of new reading to catch up on.
One year ago, you were my first-ever commenter. Look how much the site has grown! You should take partial responsibilty for that. Back then I think I only had two posts: “And then one day you find it” and “Your Challenge“. The site had been up for a while without any signs of life from readers. I was actually wondering whether I should take the site down (a testament to the insecurity that can hit you when you quit), and then your comment came through. Spooky-good timing. I’ll always remember you for that.
Well, the good news is that your life has already fallen back to basics, so you can’t fall much farther by quitting now.